but always finish it.

there are times when you sit and watch movies, and come out of it wanting those hours you wasted back. to have the time that you could have used, doing something else, maybe something more enjoyable, or more productive, back.
tonight, this is neither the case, or the feeling. i experienced, to say the least, probably one of the most powerful films i have ever seen.

tonight, i watched the changeling.

this movie was not only moving, but incredibly emotional.
from scenes where human rights is violated, to shear hurt, to life being taken away. i felt every part of this movie, and didn't bother hiding my displays for it.

if any movie should have won any kind of award, it should have been this one.
it may have been the best i have seen so far this year. and miss Jolie she did, well if their were words to describe her performance, they probably still aren't suitable enough..

i urge you, to watch this film.

that time.

i woke up this morning, after 8 hours of sleep. which never happens.
the dark circles under my bagged eyes were still there.
i cried out "dark circles go away" and my mother responded with,
"I BOUGHT YOU MEDICATION FOR THAT". clearly it didn't help..

the start of appreciation:

1. air
2. my organs, somehow even with mine, i am living. so i appreciate the fact their keeping me around for a while.
3. the sun and its abundance of heat, not to mention i love the way it shines.
4. people, as much as i say sometimes i don't like certain people, or certain types of people, i really do. i love how every person is their own, no one or nothing like them, it blows me away.
5. art. every form, in any way, by anyone. its all amazing.
6. peanut butter, just because it is the shit above all shit.
7. fair trade and it's products, it's a good cause, and its delicious.
8. blankets, pillows and beds. really there's not much to top how much i appreciate these things at the end of the day.
9. advice, whoever its from, however it comes, whatever it's about. always appreciated.
10. affection, i love knowing how people feel. i appreciate it when a person can show me how they feel rather than always saying. no matter the emotion.

10-20 to come.


oh jones, you always get my hopes up.

oh well, go to change, off to bowling.
love it, love it, love it.
ughh, i need to clean my room. i wouldn't be able to tell now if animals lived in here. gosh, why isn't this kind of stuff self cleaning!

saturdays and five feet.

i need to write down, to vocalize what i need to appreciate. in case i don't verbally say it enough, or i guess for others curiosity sake.

i'll do that soon.
within the next few posts for sure.
maybe a list of what i don't appreciate will join in.
see how the week goes.

you come, i go.

been so busy lately, it feels like i constantly have shoes on my feet, and they get worn down so much everyday. i guess it's a good excuse for more shoes..

over thinking is such a huge tendency i have, and it's never about a reasonable issue.its always about stupid things, that im already reassured about. i just worry, and keep it to myself to much.

two nights ago, i saw sepetember. i saw my life in 7 months, and instantly had a warm fast beating heart. i'd be tired everyday in 7 months to spend every night the way i spent monday night. there is nothing i am more excited for, i'm in love with EVERY part of it.

diets going horrible. i'v been following it, trying real hard, but there is ALWAYS something i think is eatable and after a month of eating turns out NAT, FML.

had tea with my two favorite people tonight, having both of them in the same place for some reason is now a rare occurrence, but there isn't much that makes me happier than just that.

lately i've noticed i don't see my own face around much, i hope im just as important. hope it's been noted, i noted it.

i know i don't capaltize words, if i had it my way i never would.

off to paint for the love of my life, shhh! he dudn't know yet!


REPEAT MUCH?!

zzz.

i'll do a long update tomorrow.

i'm dead tired.