sunshine,

yesterday i continually saw my life five months from now. i saw my future, and it looked extremely hopeful. there are so many reasons for me to be happy right now. there is nothing right now that i would change.

i woke up this morning, went to my future family members house and had french toast. my heart may have warmed and than melted some of the snow outside today i walked out so satisfied. all of my current friendships melt my heart, in such a good way. and than of course there's that one boy, that has captured my heart in more ways than he or i will ever know. i can't wait for five months from now, i can't wait for life to move forward.

ps. last night at devan g's, we made what it was in my mind an unforgettable memory. glad it was on the same night we participated in earth hour. next year anyone?

drifts, futurama, rye and pizza.

another swell thursday.
i have come to realize sometimes i contradict myself, and i hate it. i am defiantly going to fix that all up this weekend, the way people assume however, is so ridiculous it's almost amusing.
apparently,
there's this terrifying scary coyote about 30 feet from my window right now, howling so loud, hes defiantly getting closer. i need to put on the ipod, and block this shit out. there are so many clear reason's to be afraid of the dark.
stupid east of 7, mr.hotel will agree.

reconstruction site.

today, on youtube i found andy hull covering the weakerthan's, the reasons. i near shit a brick. i listened to it four times in a row, and lost count after that.
those two make a love tag team.

ps. i died my hair today.
pps. i love it, and want red hair foreva.
however in the pictures it looks much darker.
this is more its color.

ppps. i hope coldplay puts on a second show, cause we didn't get tickets. and i don't want to sit at home crying that night, listening to coldplay on my ipod.

i've got freinds.

ps. APRIL 21ST, get pumped. andy hull and manchester orchestra are putting ear melting material on the store shelves. "mean everything to nothing." FINALLY.

and to put the icing on the cake, manchester will will coming as close as minneapolis in may, so as long as someone wants to tag along for a drive. i'll be seeing andy hull live, for only 10-13$. oh lord it will be beautiful.

2009 concert's are epic.

invisible children.

http://www.invisiblechildren.com/home.php

cody and paste this in your web bar.
support this outstanding organization.
buy something, or donate.
and do more than just watch.

hit the switch.

BEYONCE IN EIGHTEEN DAYS!
than..
WEAKERTHANS!
COLDPLAY!
PARAMORE, NO DOUBT, BEDOUIN SOUNDCLASH!

AHHH!
if my mind doesn't explode this year, i'm aware some other body part will.
good chance its my heart, from all this good.

and so on.

11-20 appreciation.

11. smiles, the right ones from the right people are all I need some days.
12. romantic gestures, cause well who doesn’t appreciate that?
13. conversation. I love learning about people by conversation with them, my appreciation for people that can and want to carry on conversations are endless, especially if there with me!
14. the seasons (excluding winter) (especially fall). They are all so different, each special in its own way. Except winter, it’s just stupid, cold and dreadful.
15. music. Wither it’s being played or made, it’s so high on my list.
16. laughter.
17. hugs.
18. family, despite the craziness.
19. ice cream, and just going on dates for that purpose.
20. Sunday’s.

and one for the sake of it being the last one.
21. love, and what it can do to an individual.

small town talk.

i continue to want, and strive for conversation.
i wanted to talk about something tonight, thought about it all yesterday. kinda kept me up at night last night. i didn't get to talk about it, and will probably put it off now.
ugh.

it would be so much easier if people could read my mind when i need to discuss important matters, i hate that i hesitate than choke up like there's a stupid seashell stuck in my small throat. which happens to continually push down further in the attempt to try to speak.

for a girl that strive for conversation, i got quite the issue.

i spent 2 hours tonight standing submerged in conversation, i was in a bad mood. i could have continued it for so much longer, some peoples outlooks on life make me think i could be so much better at everything i do.
i came out not in a bad mood.

mamma's boy.

i swear if i don't have this exact puppy as soon as im done school,
all hell will break loose.
it's horrid enough i have to wait six years.
ughhh.