small town talk.

i continue to want, and strive for conversation.
i wanted to talk about something tonight, thought about it all yesterday. kinda kept me up at night last night. i didn't get to talk about it, and will probably put it off now.
ugh.

it would be so much easier if people could read my mind when i need to discuss important matters, i hate that i hesitate than choke up like there's a stupid seashell stuck in my small throat. which happens to continually push down further in the attempt to try to speak.

for a girl that strive for conversation, i got quite the issue.

i spent 2 hours tonight standing submerged in conversation, i was in a bad mood. i could have continued it for so much longer, some peoples outlooks on life make me think i could be so much better at everything i do.
i came out not in a bad mood.