it's oh so quiet.

i was considering today i may have the swine flu,
but it's just most defiantly the second option from the last post.

i am about to combust entirely, in every way.
along with my best friend, i had such a horrible dream last night i kept waking up repetivly. it was horrid, it was like reality was trying to break some surface. i woke up and actually started to worry if it was real, if this dream was possible.and if it's just trying to present me with some hideous future. WTF.

everything right now is such a blur. everyone around me lately is a voice, there are actually few that i hear. these people are the ones i am spending my time with, or making phone contact with.
i need something more than a vacation at this point.
i need to loose my mind.
in a completely different way than i am right now.
exit, escape.

i'd cross the sea and land for him,
he's my brandy alexander, and i'm the girl
who loves him inside and out,
backwards and forwards with my heart hanging out,
I love no other way.

and don't want to, for anyone else.

it's just textbook stuff.

oh i hope i'm not getting sick, it's quite possible though.
either that or every emotion that i have been feeling lately are all surfacing to make me ache, shiver and feel like complete crap.

come to think of it, may just be the second one.


scholarship status: complete. time for some shut eye.

one great city.

april 17th, happy birthday my darling devan. we went to the weakerthans last night, and by golly they were glorious. except they didn't play sun in an empty room, woah let down. but when they played the reasons, i felt my heart rise and fall like it was the only thing that the music affected.

however, there is just so much going on right now, i feel like my head is separate from my body. soon im thinking it may be, i will keep myself preoccupied with lurking blogs. finding unless but amusing stuff like this.

faded from winter.

yes, this is a real device. its called a truth wristband kit and they cost $45 bucks. you can ask the person wearing it a question and it will indicate if they are lying or telling the truth. this would come in handy, anytime now. except i may be more scared, than excited. it's from likecool.com, btw.

ps. my mind is a mind field right now, you can interpret the rest.

unpleasent surprise.

almost got devoured by a spider this morning, in my bed. in my bed! why do these things exist, my only thought is so people like me can fear them.

thank you braden scott, for saving me.

fast car.

yesterday really was a good friday.

i along with cody, also haven't had such a good day in a long time.
i woke up next to a best friend, and enjoyed every second of it, whither the room was spinning or not.

the day only proceeded to get better, i got to see baba and gido whom i haven't seen in a while. they are so old, and funny i love them dearly. i went to pick up my boy, and go to his family easter supper. i am generally always extremely happy, these people are just wonderful. the conversations, personalities, this is such a wonderful family, im so happy to be apart of it.

i continued to spend the remainder of the night with my love, and the more time i spend with him the more i realize why im with him. i woke up this morning just blissfully happy, and im so right with my life right now. i can hardly wait for whatever's next.

sleep tonight.

there are so many things i look forward to in four months.
oh my lord, four months..
i look forward to school, learning again, and just being busy.
living with my bear, making life all the more interesting, and wonderful.
spending more time with my great friends.
doing something new.
finally beginning.

and all the late nights, looking like a freaking zombie.
these black circles are nothing in comparison to the future.

grey with pastel.

ièv got freinds in low places.

note: i really hate being hungover. if someone created a pill that cured that, lord they would be rich.. i could have used some today, and im thinking tomorrow.

fool.

april in manitoba, its no suprise there is snow, is there?
today after work i was so angered at the massive piles of snow that i decided to find a way to make myself feel better.
this began my half an hour snowman building. yes i built a snowman and yes, it was kinda sorta fun. but the sole purpose of building this snowman, is to watch it melt, knowing that when it does, it will be gone for the rest of the year..
i can't wait to watch it melt, however more slowly than i would like im sure..


this is me and my creation, i am kissing him goodbye.