it's oh so quiet.

i was considering today i may have the swine flu,
but it's just most defiantly the second option from the last post.

i am about to combust entirely, in every way.
along with my best friend, i had such a horrible dream last night i kept waking up repetivly. it was horrid, it was like reality was trying to break some surface. i woke up and actually started to worry if it was real, if this dream was possible.and if it's just trying to present me with some hideous future. WTF.

everything right now is such a blur. everyone around me lately is a voice, there are actually few that i hear. these people are the ones i am spending my time with, or making phone contact with.
i need something more than a vacation at this point.
i need to loose my mind.
in a completely different way than i am right now.
exit, escape.

i'd cross the sea and land for him,
he's my brandy alexander, and i'm the girl
who loves him inside and out,
backwards and forwards with my heart hanging out,
I love no other way.

and don't want to, for anyone else.